The sun is shining the birds are singing, and this morning I woke to an unbelievable sense of the “thankfuls." I spent the morning at Clarian North with patients who would be having bariatric surgery today. I remembered the moment I was being wheeled back to surgery, the nerves, the anxiety, the relief. I now look back at that moment over two years ago as my donor moment.
I have been set firmly in the present the last couple of months as my oldest child prepares to get his drivers license. They asked my 6 ft tall baby boy if he would like to be an organ donor. Being a mom my throat immediately started to constrict and the very thought brought tears to my eyes. Before I could speak for him (he is just 15, such a decision for a child) he replied of course, a whole body donor. The moment of pride quickly replaced that initial feeling of mortality. I realized they have learned something from this journey.
When I decided to go forward with bariatric surgery I was donating the rest of my life for a cause. I want all of America to know that there is life after. After the pain of living and breathing with the shame of not controlling my weight. I was not aware that it wasn’t all my fault, not all. I own my part in the place I went to. I own the quick easy meals in the drive thru. I own the soda pop and fried foods, that is all me.
What I didn’t know and now understand is that I had sabotaged my body for years trying to do “good” diets, by trying to keep on an unbelievably low calorie diet and sweating out the yucky stuff.
Clarian Bariatrics, and Indianapolis bariatric clinic, brought a level of education to me I had never encountered. The support and education and beliefs are priceless. I am thankful for being brought into the Clarian family and now being able to help a patient or two with this journey.
I am thankful for being allowed to work with people who are not just doing their job, but their life’s work. I am thankful that I am here to here the birds sing, the sun shine, my child grow into a giving young man, and a patient start the rest of their life. This process triggers a change in your body, but one can only hope it will trigger a change in your mind and heart. To wake up two years later and know that every day is a gift and every gift is given in the thought that no repercussion is needed. But, I still feel that I have been blessed to be given the chance at a new life and I am thankful. This morning, I was asked moments before one of my patients was wheeled into surgery (she was a bit nervous) if I would do it again.
Honestly, I would not have changed a thing. That was all she needed and off she went. Smiles through her tears and her new journey has begun. I am thankful for getting to be there as she has progressed and now I will be there as she triumphs. Did you wake up today thankful, make a list and as you feel the sun and hear the birds, know there is a reason for the season and spring leads us to a wonderful time of growth and new beginnings. Thankful, should and could be a season of its own. Thankful for Clarian Bariatric Surgery Center and all of the people who make it a blessing to the patients. GO TEAM!